Betrayed"If we broke up I'd do anything to get you back."Hollow words,Hollow loveI'm just a train-wreckJust another numberFor statisticsNo more significantThan a single hairOn your headWho is she?Why aren't I enough?I can forgiveThe solitudeI can forgiveThe miseryYou've felt for so longBut what I can't forgiveIs this betrayal.You say she's irrelevantYou say you love meThat polyamory is your forteBut I don't rememberSigning that contractThat said you couldLoveSomeone else.You say I'm beautifulBut you never want sexIs my body not enough?Is she skinnier?Prettier?Less suicidal?Less inclined to challengeYour faults and discrepancies?I fear you are tired of meBoredNo longer in loveBut you tell meNo, that is not the caseWell if it isn't,Why are you with herAnd not me?It's not cheating.We broke up,It's not cheating.Well if it's not cheatingWhy do I feel betrayed?I didn't want to leave youI still want youBut you left meNo choiceWith your
ChimeraA chimera in the darkA chimera in the nightRun for your lifeRun for your lifeThey biteThey killThey snapYour bones in twoA chimera on the runA chimera chasing youRun for the hillsBecause they'll ripAnd scratchAnd mutilate youWith snapping jawsAnd grabbing pawsTeeth as sharp as hellRun form meRun from meFor I am a chimera too
The Motions of LifeGoing through the motions of life.Living. Not breathing. Not here.Just a faded echo.Emotions lost. Just guilt.Why me? Why me.I don't want to say goodbye.It hurts. I can't forget. I'm lost.I want to forget. Why did you do it?Why did you hurt me?Concrete walls encage the heart.Crushing it when it tries to grow.You made these walls, not I.To vanish. Beautiful peace. Beautiful endless peace.No more suffering or hurt. No more pain or sleepless nights.Too many hands. Too many villains.I'm lost.
To Find a LightThe world doesn't need me.It has enough poets.Artists.Filmmakers.My hope is my lover,Who's angel heartHolds my head aboveThe water to stop meDrowningIn this great pool of tears.My shrunken body,Lost in darkness,My only company a small light;My love who guides me.There are other lights, thoughI do not see themOr feel their warmthBut I sense their presence.For these lights are the people whoCare, but I have lost my ability to see.The ones who hold me, who calm meWhen I'm weepingScreamingImages in my head so vivid.So alive.Memories of a distant past thatHaunt me.I know they are thereI know they see meClear as skies.But their reach is hard to graspFumbling in the dark.
Ode to LoveLook at you, so small and quaintSo pitiful, yet so alluringWaiting for me without a complaint,Subtle sweetness on your lips, luringMe to a place of false affectionAnd honesty. While you devourMy heart with your insubordinateAnd impractical opportunistic infectionThat which you call love! Pray tell, how'reYou to expect our hearts to coordinate?I remember once, while kissing your lipsI felt my heart soar, with utter blissI must be caught in insanity's grip,For my love was lost in the black abyssAll those years ago when the manWho took my dreams also tookMy soul. Now I am merely a shellOf the girl I was before this began.You say you can help me but just lookAt what little he left me with after sanity's knell.Little boy, how can you followSuch a damaged girl so absolutely?Do you not find yourself in a wallowOf worry, hurt, and utter astuteVexation? I am puzzled by your devotionYet I cannot find it in my heartTo turn you away, for I fear that loosingYou would hurt
Running, FreeRunning waterStreams we'll never seek,Running through the Earthat such a ferocious pace.Not for ourselves,Not for our world,But for freedom.A freedomthat doesn't exist:not really; Not at all.A freedom to live, as life is precious.A freedom to love, as love isalways free; we just need tofind it.Or, if we cannot,Create it.Where is it?In our hearts, our minds?Our spirits,or merely our imagination?Or perhaps it is nowhere;after all, if it were somewhereit would surely beUsed.Gushing through valleys,the liquid of life,the thing that keeps us standing:But with one blow it is all Gone.A spurt. A choke.Dead.
soft time gently flowslazy winter afternoonreading books in the atticthe light moves across the floordusty sunbeams glow
In the DepthsEveryone has depths,Ones in touch know where they are.The brave go diving![a spark from ewaldsreef ]
*Light*MultifacetedGripped by glorious insightAll is possible.
raining in the darka wet fall eveningdripping leaves swaying branchesthe wind is changing
sightedshe's sitting in the desert storm staring down her sightsat a prey that could never be caught
tsunami nami namida 津波哉 波は収縮する 涙tsunami kana nami wa shūshuku suru namida tsunami . . .the wave collapses and then tears
#MyDayInHaiku 2014-12-15Winter blues—waves of depression ebband flow . . . but I find strength in words of hope and joy.
departing (miyoji)slip awayin soft silencegoodbye
catdictionhave to be carefulstart out with little kittensand soon you have cats[a spark from Metalclawwarrior ]
TimeYears have left us,And we're still waitingFor time to begin